Pleuvoir

i close my eyes,
listening to the pouring rain.

i close my eyes,
smelling the moisten earth.

i close my eyes,
counting to the rhythm of the distant thunder.

it's raining,
time slows down to a peaceful pace.

it's raining,
cleansing the earth from human sins.

it's raining,
the roaring thunder summoning conscience,
scattering greed that stains the human soul.

i walk out to the pouring rain,
counting my steps on the dampen earth,
along with the rhythm of the distant thunder.

it's raining.

#footnote : i love it now when it rains. it's been a long while since i wrote crap like this. ah, only when emotional that feelings to write strikes. 
#NowPlaying : Yiruma - Kiss The Rain

my immortal memories

#ricoh

silent night ticking by

wind whispering outside my window ..

i closed my eyes and it came to me,

the sweet scent that sets fire through my veins

i kept my eyes shut and it came to me,

and i see the smile that carves another smile on another face, my face.

things were never this way

and it was never possible

i wonder if your quiet presence

changed and redefined everything in my life

it won't last, i know ..

but i'm still working hard to capture 

these moments to grant them immortality

in my memories.

a blooming dream

i had a dream

a lopsided version of

the world i'm living in

what was accused wrong was right

colors were mere black and white 

with flowers blooming cheerfully

but it was pathetically just a dream.

#footnote : listening to Spirited Away's theme song : One Summer's Day. 

Nice dreams are always short.

Mich

it's raining

#photo taken: A rainy day at KHS 2010

it's raining outside
the serene noise of the pouring rain
a sweet rhythm that follows by the chill in the air
with the soft scribbling noise of ball pen against paper
i am sitting here, sending my mind away
stealing some time to torture myself
with a distant heart

it's raining outside
the comforting smell of the dampen earth
a delicate scent that stays temporarily in the air
with the low humming whispers of relaxed students
i am standing here, my senses taking full control
feelings clutching my erratic heart
with a mind that wanders off too far

it's raining outside
the breeze simply brushes by
leaving me shivering with a mind
thinking of you.


#footnote : was flipping through my journal or rather, notebook and found this left out "poem" dated back on 6 of January. 
It's first of February, two more sleeps away from Chinese New Year..this CNY break is so short ! I need more time to settle my feelings and my school stuff. Sigh. One word to describe my current feelings : L.O.S.T.

Love,
Mich

unforgivable moment

#photo taken by: Fene Ng

There is a knock on the door

No one.

There is this grasp at the heart

No beat.

Stranded in this isolated world of my own,

I can't seem to find my way out..

Struggling is futile,

Escaping is pointless.

The cheering crowd that increase as time ticks by

is deceiving me

If i give in to the illusions you create

It's because i am trapped within my own lies.

There is a silhouette under the moonlight

Nothing much.

There is this sweetness in the air

Nothing else.

Your string of thoughts are ocean-deep

I can't seem to find my way in.

There are questions to be answered and

To be left unasked.

The crowd will have to dismiss themselves;

Though the show never even started.

If the curtains are to fall apart...

The world will see that my illusions and your lies

Will leave my heart wounded.

Footnote:

i don't know what led to this ... i mean know what inspired (OTL) this, but i dunno what led to this emo..Oh well..forget bout' it.

Anyway....this post...seems rubbish-ish (OTL) to me....>.<

IDK

plainly trying to express my feelings at this moment. Sigh.

Original time of this blog draft: 26 Dec 10 11.12 p.m.

Mich

p/s: a comment will do to cheer me up =P

That's the way

it’s time to realize that

human tend to fall in love with devils

they trace you, found you

and lure you into a world full of illusions they created

until you stumble upon the concrete wall that braces their heart

that’s when you realize they’re never yours

but it’s too late

cause your soul is already theirs

Mich

From tumblr.

that girl

it's dark outside...

piercing silence creeping near through

the chilly air that embrace me without mercy.

standing in front of the mirror,

i saw her.

the girl that reflects my soul

the girl that hides herself within my reflection

cowering from her unstable emotions,

unable to deceive resentments that are too vivid.

that girl who lives within my reflection

struggling against her erratic emotions,

pathetically controls all untamed desires;

slipping deep into her conscience,

she search for courage to summon

the brittle self-esteem that hardly ever existed.

slowly, it dawns upon me that

the dampness on her face

are tears sliding down my cheeks 

the girl that reflects on my mirror.

inspired by: emo

playing yiruma's in the yellow room album

exact time: 5 december 10 11.08p.m.

the frequent update of my blog briefly indicates that i haven't been studying...argh..! how could that be possible? LOL. 

i have to kill one essay tonight! =D

Mich

of scattered bits of memories and our pain

if my apology for my absence and my ignorance when it happened

could in anyway diminishes the pain that awaits you,

that would be the best gift from God

and if my endless prayers could in anyway

 grant you invulnerability 

for what you have to go through,

that would be mercy shown by God 

if my courage could rip that shuddering fear 

from your tough yet fragile frame,

that would be Zeus granting me his power

bracing every possibilities that are coming in your way

there's no way for you to be alone,

despite the courage you tried to show

as we walk hands in hands,

praying hearts by hearts,

that's when everything will be okay..

because we love you, 

and you know that's the reason you stay here

to watch how your love is growing

within and between the three of us

the endless love

stay with her and stay with us.

love my mama..

Mich. 

upon my death...

feeling the last sign of life slipping away

through my fingertips 

the warmth of my body seeping out

leaving me behind

i could no longer breath

my fragile heart refuse to beat 

knowing the fact that i could no longer reach out to you

struggling fruitlessly to hold on 

hovering to love more

but upon my death something else arises 

as my death brings the two of you together

when the love for me draws you in the same direction

and my love for you seals your hearts as one

that is when i will live on forever

through the love my death created

the eternity of my love

lives on after the last beat of my heart

Some product of my emo-ness...LOL
Listening to Yiruma's: Love hurts.
Disclaimer: the pic is not mine! i randomly googled and found this...

Mich

and i miss...

Sitting in the morning class of History
Listening to the laughter of classmates and the teacher's voice
Everything seems so fine and ordinary
Just like the normal daily routine of the week
But something's obviously amiss
Because something's missing
Some feelings are gone
This ticklish sensation remains
And i miss the way we talk,
like we've known each other for six summers
And i miss the way you say "Tell me something i don't know about you",
like you're forbidding our conversation to reach its end
And i miss the way you tease,
like you're reading my mind, telling me that i'm wrong
And i miss your smiles and the way you care
The things you did and the things you said,
were once miraculously so significant
But time flies leaving memories behind
Like summer leaving without a word
Shredding every leaf with its hope
And it's cold but you'll never know.