just wanna .. say something

Laugh all you want, but I've already off my computer but shot up and turned it on again. Have this sudden urge to blog and just you know, wanna say something. But .. oh well .. 

#be my penguin ?

It's kind of a special day for me. Well, maybe not THAT special. Okay, a wee bit special, no .. a little bit more than that ? Okay, A LIL MORE than that.. Scrap those, it's special ! Ahhh, whatever ! Anyway, I just wanna say .. I don't know what I want to say.. ! HA.HA.HA. So farneyyy la ! 

Right.

I wanna sleep now. Nights. K, thanks, bye.

Love love love love love,

Mich

P/s : I wonder if you felt what I felt. 

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Trials are officially over. But we've got some minor tests to sit for. Anyhow, I guess I pass all my subjects for trials, obviously not with flying colors. And my favorite teacher lectured the whole class today for two full slots. And i guess she's right, how our unstable emotions can affect our focus so and so. Despite how i don't want to admit, but yes, it's written in my face literally that i'm really having the "time of my life" this month. Sigh.

And I'm wondering what about all those promises I've made to others and myself. It's true, being governed by emotion ups and downs more than often affects us in a devastating way. It exhaust you too. I know i'm never good at controlling my emotions, I let it get to me all the time. And i bet it's pretty tiring to everyone around me. Because it's killing me. Trust me, it's striving, having to control all these unstable emotions. It's not like you can do anything about it. Unless you're really good at keeping it at bay, which means you're wise and .. well .. matured. I'm not. In so many ways, I'm not mature, nor am I wise. 

I recently read about over thinking from an excerpt of an article. And then another short article that says, people over think about some thing because they really care. 

I'll try and not crush my heart into pieces okay ? =)

Love,

Mich

whatnots

Trials over and I've shifted to a new house. Everything happened in about a week only. It feels like a decade, to me at least. I thought reading will distract me from over thinking. But this time, no, it did not. 

I'm reading Something Borrowed by Emily Griffin and it made me feel downright worse. It's definitely not a tears jerker, but every time Rachel describes her feelings for Dex, it makes you feel like crying. How guilty she feels for wanting more of Dex and how insecure she feels about their barely existing love. How she has no rights at all to feel certain things but still feels it strongly. But it's a book, it has an ending, a happily ever after ending. 

Life is not a book. It has a beginning but you never know when it ends. Insecurity is like a black hole, it sucks everything around it inwards, leaving an emptiness behind. 

And my brother played Christina Perri's Arms on a loop. Forcing the lyrics into my mind. However, it hits a nerve. 

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

Sometimes, your mind tells you not to simply judge a person, but your gut tells you your judging is right. 

Love,

Mich

Y U NO PARK SOMEWHERE ELSE

I should be studying. In fact I was looking for note from the same old blog I used to visit until .. well .. my finger just worked their way to open another new tab and logged into facebook page. Completely their fault ! Not mine. Right .. and guess what, one of my friend posted a YouTube link with the title ..

#Tesco Malaysia : Unreasonable Woman Who "Snatched" People's Parking

I usually don't watch this kind of videos because firstly, it's crap. Secondly, it's lame. But out of the blue I played it and thanks to the smoothness of my line, it played smoothly too. Here is the link to the video in case you might wanna watch. 

And HERE is the briefing on what actually happened in MY opinion. The driver auntie was waiting for a parking and somehow the yellow shirt auntie cut queue and parked the parking the driver auntie was waiting for. Then, obviously, this driver auntie must have said something to this yellow shirt auntie provoking her "fire". And so, they ended up shooting each other. Then obviously again, the whole process was being recorded and uploaded into YouTube for the whole wide world to know how Malaysian Chinese Women behave when they got cut while waiting for parking or rather when they got confronted "snatching" parking. 

But I somehow find some viewers comments are hilarious ..

Honestly, though I know that Police in Malaysia are very hardworking. On call 24/7. You seriously think they accept report on someone cutting queue for .. what ? Parking ? What should you say ? 

"I would like to lodge a report, sir. A Chinese lady in yellow(probably a bersih member) just 'snatched' my parking lot at Tesco."

Now that this commenter mentioned the yellow auntie's husband, I found it quite funny that at some point in the video, she told her kid to ask for "baba" which means the kid's father and also her husband. But in the end, the guard turned up. I heard wrongly or what ?!

Now now .. THAT hits a nerve. What does all this nonsense got anything to do with being Chinese and Malaysia ? Just because it happens IN Malaysia and both are Chinese women doesn't mean this is what we ARE ! Similar cases happens too among other races and this doesn't mean a specified race is stupid. And this video ALONE doesn't represent the WHOLE Malaysia ! HELL, of course it DOESN'T !

Well, I know many people out there are really racist. My parents, to be real honest, are racist sometimes. But this is very narrow minded for certain people to judge and call we, Chinese, as a stupid race. You know many stuff happen around in Malaysia involves a lot other races which can be really imbecilic. 

You see being racist is actually like a allergy reaction.

There must be something that triggers you and affects you directly causing your brain to transmit the racist cells. My father can be scolding something bad about any races while driving on the road, but he still can tag along with Malays co-workers and sometimes talk about how both Chinese and Malays are being unreasonable. 

You can call a Chinese stupid if he kicked you in the ass. You can call a Malay brainless if he stole your phone. You can call an Indian idiot if he raped your cat. Well, not the he will.

But when you're just a youtube user watching videos online and telling the world, Chinese in Malaysia are stupid, rude etc .. it's just plain .. idiotic. YES .. it's affecting me directly that's why i can call those commenter IDIOT ! 

And then this,

Malaysians HAS have turned into a bunch of illiterate cowboys. SO .. he/she is saying he/she is one of them since by the end of the comment, he/she stressed that he's/she's a Malaysian too. How very funny. Don't you know Malaysia is the only country that provides free education until you're 18 ? (It's considered free in government schools even though certain fees are compulsory to be paid besides, you don't have to buy textbooks in here, do YOU ?) 

You see, one thing I'm sure about Malaysians is that, they are very easily sidetracked. They lose their focus easily. Like some body bombing case, like some body off some building case and some auntie snatching parking case. I'm a good example. See, I'm easily sidetracked but I'm clearly NOT stupid. 

Actually, if my parking lot was to be taken unreasonably, I'd smile and wait until the driver gets in the mall. Then .. I'll take out my favorite 50 cents coin and show some creative work. If you know what I mean. Haha, just kidding. :D

Yours truly,

Mich

p/s : Actually, I wasn't feeling that all happy about something that came up lately in my life. So, no offense to anyone, i'm just venting my own frustration on something else. but i really got pissed about those comments. 

maybe i should really keep a safe distance which i should have done way earlier. hope it's not too late. yes, i failed at guarding my emotion again. sigh. till then. :'(