of a worn out brain and running out of time

#it's so hot today, i need some moisture

I haven't really been updating my blog as frequently as i used to huh ? idk ..

It has been chaotically busy this few weeks and i'm not really as enthusiastic about updating my blog as i used to, besides the mid-term exam is literally just around the corner. Exactly at this time of the year, the new batch of six formers are coming in too. I had to do the slide show for their orientation as the committee of the student council. Oh yeah, and a whole lot of paperwork for the Girl Guides Half-Day Camp. Thanks god my teacher is really super duper nice ! She helped and guided me through most of it =)

Seeing myself doing all these, i traced out the pattern, no my pattern .. It seems to me that, i've moved to the background of things, quietly(technically laa) doing background stuff. Not like my usual self that was always actively participating in activities not bothering about what it takes for an activity to actually come alive and work out. I can think of one analogy of this change : I'm no longer the drawing nor the colors of a painting, i've become the frame that sets the painting to be a perfect thing to look at ..

The funny part is, i enjoy doing the background stuff, despite my hyper-active nature and egoistic self, i actually like going home, typing several letters, program list, etc. Seeing bits by bits of puzzle working something solid out drags my mind away from stuff.

My time is obviously running out. It's already May in just a blink of the eyes. I'm pretty sure i will screw up my mid-term exam, total lost ! I'm literally living in guilt day by day because i'm committing suicide in the sense that i'm still slacking around not bothering much about my studies ! I'm 100% sure that if i keep this up, i'll regret to death by the end of the year. But .. I can't seem to find the motivation i need anyhow ! I know, so screwed up right ? I'm messing with time, luck and my future in one shot, cool huh ? OTL

Hmm.. such a long draggy,rambling,babbling post .. ! Thank you so much if you lent me your time reading this.. Haha ..! Are you kind enough to leave me some motivating comments too ? *puppy eyes* =P

Yours sincerely,

Mich

in need of this and that

Hoola hoola !

I was wondering if i ever mentioned that i've recently fallen in love with coffee. I was never a fan of coffee. I used to dislike the taste and the smell ! But recently, i begin to like coffee ! Hmm.. i don't know why, but maybe it's because of the lame theory about people changing so and so .. So, yeah ! I'm officially declaring my latest liking of coffee here in my blog .. OTL

#this is of course not my first cup of coffee .. like d-uh !

This is a yummilicious cup of white coffee from a stall near my area ! It's crazily awesome .. =) It tasted like cappuccino ! Heh ..

You realize i edited this photo with a very lomo-ish effect... ? *evil smile* Hehehehe .. I want a lomo camera so dang much .. sigh ! And i'm still debating whether to get a ...

#photo taken from : lomo-crewz

Not the doll of course, but this NeinGrenze 5000 T !!! or ...

#photos taken from : google

This is a Polaroid CAMERA using cheap polaroid films !!!! ohhhh... isn't it adorable ???!!! >< It's too adorable i'm gonna DIEEEE !!!

Okay .. enough of my wantings..

I'm still saving money for either ! T__T any advance birthday money-giving are welcome and if you're considering getting the very nice me a birthday gift, convert it to cash instead.. just saying .. OTL

Do you still remember one of my recent post about hope letters to Japan ? Well, i came across with this guy(a very famous one indeed) that did something so meaningful that it captivated lots of attention .. You know who i'm talking bout ?

yes, i'm talking about him ..



Ryan Higa - #honkforjapan
And this people in Japan definitely found out what he did for them because this very video was on a Japanese news ! =) Congrats to Ryan ! 
It has been awful lately, what with disasters here and there and war being launched at Libiya just to capture one person ! Prayers are needed everywhere .. if you can't donate or whatsoever, pray for them .. ! 
Another story in my life goes this way : April's MUET is just around the corner and my class haven't even begin on group discussion, but the teacher briefed those who are taking this test la.. >< I'm a bit scared !! Sigh .. 
Lotsa love, 
Mich
p/s : i'm glad my blog is a very personalized blog with scattered bits about my life instead of a dictionary blog =P

of being emo and regrets

on the way home, i was chatting away with a junior of mine. we talked about regrets .. ! specifically regretting knowing someone in our life. i told him, i have no regrets in that aspect. 

i somehow think that, everything happens for a certain reason and it only happens in one way. that pretty much explains why "if" doesn't really exist. that applies to people i meet in my life too. you meet one person at a time, and that's the only person you will meet in one way or the other. that person exist in your life for a certain reason, no matter how small that reason can be. hitherto, i never regretted knowing a person in my life. not really. but there are, of course, time when i would think, what if i never know this person ? that's just a thought. 

i don't know why, fatigue found me, through my feelings and also physically .. feeling so emo recently ! and guess what, i hate this feeling .. can you please take it away ? just this time ?

Love,

Mich

p/s : and yes, i never regretted knowing you, too.

of a little this and that

It's Sunday and guess what, the beginning of the first semester break ! Yoohoo ! Guys out there, you can date me now !! LOL.. Honestly, though it's a break but the holiday is kinda pack with lotsa assignments and the research and develop report too. Sigh ! But the highlight of the whole holiday is a visit to Mummy's place by the end of the week.. haha..the end of the holiday too ! OTL

#darken sky

this is the piece of sky out side my house, random shot ! I really think it would have been better without that wire or whatever you call it there.

Yesterday was the day we had a kind of big ceremony for my grandmother - some Chinese's tradition/law/custom..etc. It was raining though.. Anyways, went to The Mines and Jusco Cheras Selatan with my family just now.

My parents had their first Subway sandwiches at The Mines..Like everyone or almost everyone, their first Subway sandwich were candid and epic..haha..clumsy laa ! I lazy wanna take photo of their look eating the sandwich, hopefully you guys can imagine it !  We went The Mines because my sister needed to buy a luggage for her job trip. Her company is having this expo thingy at Guangzhou, China that wants her to tag along. She's now packing for the one week trip in her room..lol..SOUVENIRS please !! (p/s : You can now get anything as a souvenir for your friends as long as it is marked MADE IN CHINA...XD)

And then we dropped by Jusco and my parents bought this ladygaga ladyship essence extractor which is actually a bloody high-tech juice/food blender. It can blend whatever you put inside including orange or lemon along with the skin !

#essence extractor

My mother(me too actually..heh) is kinda excited to try out this blender that can literally blend anything into liquid form ! It seems to me that my mother is gonna liquefy our breakfast ! I hope she won't liquefy our dinner too ... OTL yucksss !

Sam was the one who exposed me to photography and digital-slrs ! Explaining all the shutter and lens stuff to me.. And i was then falling in love with this ability to preserve precious moments in a shot..But due the my total random-ness, I love lomography !!!! Haha..i came across with a blog that sells lomo cameras online ! I'm so dead and is wanting a lomo camera so dang much !!!!! T___T sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh !!! perhaps a Minimo-X or NG5000T ??? wahhh ! i want one please ! this is an epic tragedy...

To be honest, this update was supposed to be my thoughts about the latest disaster at Japan.. I watched the raw videos of the catastrophe, it was devastating.. at their homes and my heart. And the news just now was about videos of the disaster that spread through youtube and the web. The most devastating part of this whole thing is, i can't believe that they're human being out there that think Japan deserve this ! Despite what happened during world war two, it's already history.. ! My prayers goes to the victims of this disaster. God bless them.

Lotsa love,

Mich

of delayed post, devours and missings...

Hey peeps! LOL..another rambling post of mine..sigh!  It's 21 December already. 4 more sleeps and it's Christmas!!! Weee...well, i suppose it will be another Christmas with my parents..OTL. But i had an early celebration at my sister's church which was really fun..haha..! Knowing the fact that she actually feels belong there, it warms me up..=)

 Last Wednesday..i went out with my "baby"! i know i know, it's long ago and i actually delayed until now only cram everything in one post..SORRY! 

of cravings and missing dogs

LOL...i was bored during modern lit so...

 promoting for unicef campaign...hehe

oh....that's my lovely notebook! it's thick and nice...love it!

i did this before the finals started but just remembered its existence! hehe

Hmmm...the weather during these few days are so terribly, extremely horrible! It's hot and it's giving me headaches and numbs! 

Actually, planned to go out with Nan today...Oh well, canceled all plans today.. x( 

Argh. My cravings for certain things

It's Diwali

diwali

Tomorrow will be Diwali..^^ Well, this year's Diwali got no place to celebrate...Aww....but I really miss aunty's muruku neh!

and the war begins

So, this week, exam starts officially! LOL. yeah. My first paper is History Paper 1 and it's tomorrow. I don't wanna claim that I've studied hard. In fact, I slacked a lot. I mean, the study mood was like on and off on and off. I guess SPM spoiled me. I'm so used to study last minute that any early preparations just won't register. Haiz...so, this final exam last for approximately six days! I'm really lucky that it's not quite crammed as in a few papers per day. So...I still have some time to patch up for those subjects I neglected(i've been studying history AND only history). This, I suppose considered as last minute study eh...

Last week was such an eventful week! Wedding dinner and Fene with her dengue! The bright side is that, she's getting better and the doctor will discharge her tomorrow. Thanks god! But I think she somehow enjoyed some of her time there with the "sweetest" porridge in the world...LOL. Um...she's not that chicken after all...hehe...All of these sorta zapped most of my energy outta me! Phew...hu~ Um...I think something came up in my family-my father's side. My grandfather is really a troublemaker. Not only did he dumped my grandmother at our house without paying her visits but also creating troubles for almost everyone. He's really annoying.

Hey, have I introduce my nephew to you? LOL...nephew obsession...haha

Nicholas

Haha, isn't he cute? LOL...he resembles my sister at this point...but now...he started to have some traits from my BIL...he's chubby and cute! And very naughty too! I just love the way he smiles and his dimples! So freaking cute! Babies!!!! They're too adorable and so innocent! So, my sister participated this FB contest using this photo and if you're free or whatever...Please vote him okay? hehe...Just remember to like the page before you vote for him via this link. So, I've linked those required links to this post. You just have to click it. Convenient no? LOL...support support ya...hehehe...! I'm trying to upload a video of him to youtube. But too slow...I'll post it here when I'm done uploading!

All the best to those who are sitting for exams! Whatever exams! Oh yeah, it's cold again...dampness always manage to screw my mood up...but most of the time, i like it...haha...Cheers!

Mich

Dr. Mahathir

lol. I just saw Mahathir in today's 8.00pm's news at 8tv. Well, he's old like my mother said. But, I like him. He was one of the great prime ministers Malaysia ever had. I don't really know him because I was just a kid when he "ruled". LOL. But he made that kid liked him and has been liking him ever since. Maybe it's because of the conversations between mummy and daddy about him or maybe it's because of the way he talks. I remember when I was a kid, I'll listen intently whenever he gives talks and interviews, so and so. Hehe... i think he's one of those people that makes others like him just like that. >< lol. The way he still appears in news to comment about our current and previous prime minister is somehow hilarious. Okayy, politics stops right here. LOL. Just wanna tell that I admire our Bapa Pemodenan! Not gonna condemn anyone or any other things. By the way, when I googled Mahathir, I found his blog and thought it would be nice to share it..lol...this is his blog. Nice one.

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Sometimes, humans are simply funny in their own way! You knew someone is talking/writing or even singing about you but you'll still ask this question: Is that me you're talking about?>,< Well, basically, the answer you will be getting is: LOL. Don't perasan!(my version) Hehe. Weee....I found and downloaded some trial exam papers for my history and even printed some parts of it! See...I'm working.lol. Oh gosh, I guess I've been updating my blog way too frequently. lolx.
=,=" my brother is so freaking annoying! He saw the way I edited the picture(the one for my current header) and he started bugging me to teach him how to do it! Ugh!!! He's so damn annoying! This is what he did. swt. I'm eighteen, it's okay to be "childish"! Besides, I'm a girl! But HE! A 21 year old GUY!!! Doing stuff like this! SWT la! Alright, lets burn the midnight oil together gether! LOL. Oh yeah, I've completed my proposal and gonna submit it tomorrow! Weeeee! Cheers!

Mich

and i miss...

Sitting in the morning class of History
Listening to the laughter of classmates and the teacher's voice
Everything seems so fine and ordinary
Just like the normal daily routine of the week
But something's obviously amiss
Because something's missing
Some feelings are gone
This ticklish sensation remains
And i miss the way we talk,
like we've known each other for six summers
And i miss the way you say "Tell me something i don't know about you",
like you're forbidding our conversation to reach its end
And i miss the way you tease,
like you're reading my mind, telling me that i'm wrong
And i miss your smiles and the way you care
The things you did and the things you said,
were once miraculously so significant
But time flies leaving memories behind
Like summer leaving without a word
Shredding every leaf with its hope
And it's cold but you'll never know.